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Decisions
00:58
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THE BURNING EMPTINESS IN OUR MINDS
CAUSED BY THE LOSS OF A FAMILIAR PART OF OURSELVES
A FREE DECISION OF A FREE PERSONALITY
A DAILY SCENE WITH AN EMOTIONAL IMPACT
WE DIDN’T KNOW TILL WE’RE AFFECTED
WE CANNOT UNDO THIS
BUT WE CAN TRY TO UNDERSTAND
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2. |
Memorial
05:15
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THIS IS SURREAL I CAN’T BELIEF
WITHIN THESE DAYS I RECOGNIZE AND SEE
THE BLINDNESS OF MY INNER EYE
NEED TO AWAKE OF THIS NIGHTMARE
YOU KNEW YOU COULD CONFIDE IN ME
YOUR EVERY FEAR WE’D GOT ANOTHER WAY
THAN THIS LAST RESORT
BUT YOUR DECISION WAS A FINAL STROKE
IN TEARS YOU WROTE
THESE LAST LINES
FOR US TO SAY GOODBYE
WON’T GET TO KNOW
THE REASONS FOR
YOUR BEHAVIOR
IN DARKEST DAYS
MEMORIALS REFLECT OUR MEMORIES
CAN’T BE ERASED
WILL LAST FOREVER WITHIN OUR FAITH
THE SUN WON’T WARM MY MIND AGAIN
I’M DROWNING IN THESE HOURS OF IGNORANCE
THE REASON I CANNOT FIND
IS LIKE THE FEELINGS YOU DENIED
I REFLECT OUR DAYS OF YOUTH
WHEN WE’VE SWORN WE’LL WALK THE HELL THROUGH
AND NOW I’M HERE WITHOUT YOUR AID
MAY A SIGN WOULD LEAD ME OUT
NO FINAL WORDS
NO CHANCE FOR A BID FAREWELL
WE’LL CARRY YOU FORTH IN OUR HEARTS
CAUSE THIS MEMORIAL REMAINS
AND WILL REMIND US WHO YOU WERE
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3. |
Sight Of Blindness
06:12
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WITH OPEN EYES I DIDN’T REALIZE
THAT I WAS THAT BLIND COULDN’T FIND MY MIND
IN A HOLE WITHIN A DARK BLACK CHAPTER IN MY HEAD
BEEN WALKING THROUGH THE DEPTHS AND DIDN’T REALIZE
TILL THEY’VE DRAWN MY ATTENTION - REAL UP MYSELF
FOCUSED MY OBJECTIVES AND LOST THE SIGHT OF MY ENCOURAGE
NO STOP AT NOTHING WAS THE TRIGGER FOUND MYSELF A STRANGER
THE ASHES IN MY HANDS
ASPHYXIATION
BLOWING OFF MY LIFE
TO END THIS CHAPTER
THROUGH DUST I WALK IN – NOWHERE
A NEW DIMENSION – ANYWHERE
TRYING TO REBUILD
THESE SHARDS OF MY LIFE
TELL ME WHAT’S WRONG WHAT’S RIGHT OR DON’T YOU EVEN KNOW
WELL THERE IS NO PREDICTION WHICH ONE IS YOUR WAY
I NEVER MINDED WHAT THEY SAY BECAUSE I AM WHO I AM
HANDLE MY LIFE AND IF I FAIL I FAIL FOR WHAT I AM
SPITTING OUT DUST AND SHADES
I SEE RISING MY DISGRACE
WITH OPEN EYES I SEE THE SIGHT OF BLINDNESS
IN A HAZE I SEE THE RAY
WITH OPEN EYES I DIDN’T REALIZE
THAT I WAS THAT BLIND COULDN’T FIND MY MIND
IN A HOLE WITHIN A DARK BLACK CHAPTER IN MY HEAD
OH NO THIS ISN’T ME
A SHADOW OF MYSELF
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4. |
Enemy Inside
05:16
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LOOKING FOR THE PATH
THAT I HAVE GOT TO GO
WHO THE FUCK HAS EVER
SPOILED IT FOR ME
ALL OF MY DEFAULTS
CANNOT BE DENIED
THERE’S NO HELPING HAND
SO I’VE TO STAND BY
NO I WON’T GET ON
IF I DON’T LEAVE ALL
VICES STRAIGHT BEHIND
AS I LEFT MY MIND
WELL I KNOW IT’S HARD
NEED TO REALIZE
IT’S MY CHANCE TO CHANGE
I HAVE TO CHANGE
NO ONE BUT ME
CAN EVER BREAK MY FATE
I AM THE ONE
TO TAKE CHARGE OF MY LIFE
BEFORE US ALL
SO I PUT THE BLAME
ON MY FELLOW MEN
MY OBSESSION LED ME
CAN’T THINK FREE
MY SUPPRESSION IS
MY CREATION
WHO HAS TO PAY FOR?
OH I BLAME FOR THAT FUCK
BREAK PRIORITIES
INSTEAD MY ENEMY
WRECKING ME
FROM WITHIN MY MIND
I BECAME WHAT I’VE NEVER WANTED TO BE
(I) MADE MYSELF AN ENEMY
HELP, I NEED BE FREE HOLD ME FEELINGS WRECKING ME AND I CAN’T SEE CLEAR
CAN’T ACCOUNT FOR ALL I’VE DONE
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5. |
Sensations
02:59
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TRYING TO BE THE ONE
FOR YOU I’M CRYING – LAUGHING
BUT THAT’S NOT WHO I AM
I CANNOT HATE – NOT LOVE YOU
CAUSE I AM NOT AND WON’T BE YOUR MARIONETTE
AND I WILL NOT DISGUISE MYSELF FOR YOU
NO ONE AND NOTHING CAN FORCE MY SENSATIONS – IF I EVEN CAN’T
JUST HANDLE BY INSTINCT AND DO WHAT FEELS RIGHT
BELIEF IN YOURSELF
TELL ME WHAT YOU EXPECT
WHETHER YOU SCREAM OR WHISPER IT
NO LONGER I WILL WAIT
FOR REASONS I WON’T SEE THROUGH
LOVE IS DEATH
I AM FREE
BELIEF MYSELF
NO ONE CAN FORCE SENSATIONS
THIS
LOVE – HATE – LAUGHING – CRYING
SCREAM – WHISPER – THESE THINGS I WON’T SEE THROUGH
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6. |
Reckoning
04:51
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DREAMING AWAKENING
AND NOTHING IS THE SAME
A BROKEN HEART IN MY CHEST
WITHIN A BADGE OF SHAME
THERE’S NO WAY TO EXPRESS
HATE SEETHING IN ME
I’M SICK OF YOU ADVICES
I AM FREE
WHILE THOUGHTS ARE RISING
A MIRROR REFLECTS MY FACE THIS ISN’T ME
I CAN’T DENY THAT
CHANGE OF MYSELF WITHIN THESE SHATTERED DAYS
I HATE THE GAME I’M IN
BUT NO ONE GOT THE CHOICE
THIS LEVEL’S YOUR DEFEAT
SO YOU’RE LOSING POISE
MY MIND IS TENSING UP
I SEE YOU’RE HEAD HELD HIGH
IF LOOKS COULD KILL
YOU’D PASSING BY
I WISH THAT I’VE NEVER MET YOU
I WISH I COULD HAVE SAVED THIS PAIN
JUST FOR YOUR HUMILIATION
SLEEPLESS NIGHTS FULL OF NIGHTMARES
AN ENDLESS WAIT FOR SALVATION
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7. |
Beyond Control
04:16
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I CAN’T REMEMBER
IN WHOM YOU ARE
OR WHAT TURNED YOU AROUND
YOU ARE THE SHADOW
OF YOURSELF
YOU DON’T EVEN REALIZE
REJECT OUR HELP
YOU RIPPED IN YOUR WORLD
CAN’T BEAR RELATION
TO WHAT YOU HAVE DONE
YOU CANNOT CONTEMPLATE
TO BREAK IT UP
ARE THESE DAYS’ WORTH LIVING
IN NOTHINGNESS
PALE AND COLD YOU’RE LAYING HERE
BLEAR-EYED SHE’S HOLDING YOUR HAND
BEYOND CONTROL YOU’VE GONE AWAY
STANDING BACK AND SEE YOU DECAY
I CLOSE MY EYES SEE YOUR DEAD FACE
WITHIN YOUR FALL FROM GRACE
I SAW YOU SUFFERING
BUT YOU DENIED
THIS CONSPICUOUS PAIN
I WISH YOU COULD SEE
YOUR FAMILY BLEEDING
WHEN THEY GOT BEHIND YOU
YOU VICTIMIZED THEM
FEND FOR MYSELF’
AS THEY SEE YOU COLLAPSE
THIS SILENT BEING
RECALLS OUR DAYS
I WANT YOU TO NOTICE
YOU ARE THE SHADOW OF YOURSELF
HOLD ON ME RETURN BACK TO LIFE
SO HOLD MY HAND – I JUST WANTED YOU TO HELP
ESCAPE THIS HELL – I WON’T LET YOU FALL AGAIN
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8. |
My Resistance
04:53
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WITHIN THESE DAYS
THIS EVERLASTING RAIN
I WALK TO FIND MYSELF AGAIN
I DROWN IN YOU’RE CRAWLING
THROUGH THE SHADES WHERE YOU BEEN FALLING
(YOU) FORSAKE ME YOU WON’T BREAK ME REALIZE BELIEF YOUR LIES
CONDEMNED AND VICTIMIZED MY SACRIFICE BELIEF YOUR LIES
THIS IS THE END I STRUGGLE FOR EXISTENCE MY RESISTANCE
I WILL FIGHT TO GET OUT OF THIS ALL THE HELL INSIDE
NO LONGER I STAND STILL
AND WATCH IT ALL FADING AWAY
JUST ANYWHERE NEED TO ESCAPE MY FATE THIS LINES ALONG WON’T KEEP AHEAD
FALL FROM THE HIGHEST HIGHS INTO LOWEST LOWS BUT NO ONE KNOWS
THE ONLY THINGS WE HATE ARE IN OUR HEADS THE BURNING RED
CALLED LOVE A VITAL SIGN THAT BREAKS AND FUCKS OUR MINDS
RESISTANCE TO PROTECT
ONLY SEE THE FAULTS
IS YOUR WAY TO ESCAPE
I WON’T APPROACH YOU
I WON’T DISCOUNT YOU
BUT I WILL THINK OF YOU EVERY DAY
I DON’T KNOW WHY
I DON’T KNOW HOW I CAN
AFTER ALL THESE WORDS
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9. |
Welcome Any Change
04:53
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RELATIONS
FADING AWAY
WHAT REMAINS
IS VACANCY
RETHINKING
HANDLE MYSELF
NEED NO ONE
ESCAPE THE SHELF
THESE THOUGHTS STUCK IN MY HEAD
DISTRACT ME FROM A NORMAL DAY
CONFLICTIONS EVERY DAY
YOU FORSAKE YOUR FAMILY
LEFT BEHIND
ALL ALONE
YOU DROPPED OUT
OF OUR HOME
WE CAN’T CONDONE
NOW YOU ARE BEYOND OUT OF REACH AND
LIVE YOUR LIFE BUT DON’T BELIEF
THAT WE’D HONOR YOUR REGRETS
WE’RE NOT YOUR MARIONETTES
FORGIVENESS
YOU ASKED FOR
BEEN SELFISH
ALL TIME BEFORE
YOU CAN’T HEAL
THESE MENTAL SCARS
IT’S TOO LATE
WE’RE TORN APART
YOU WON’T COME BACK AND IF
I WANT NO APOLOGY
THESE ANSWERS YOU OWE ME
YOU CAN’T REPLY YOU WOULD DENY
YOU’RE BEYOND
OUT OF REACH
WHERE WERE YOU I NEEDED YOU…
…I NEEDED NOONE ELSE BUT YOU
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10. |
Nothing Remains
04:05
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I DENY THE CIRCUMSTANCE
THESE DAYS OF SORROW
MY LOST CHANCE
DON’T PSYCH OUT WITH THE RESULTS
WON’T CLOSE MY EYES
TILL THERE’S A REAL FACT
WON’T REALIZE
HATRED OF ALL THIS LOST DAYS
I WON’T EXPERIENCE
THERE’S NO CHANCE
I’D LIKE TO SEE THE DAYS
WHEN I AM GONE
OUT OF YOUR HEADS
NOTHING REMAINS
I AM ON MY KNEES BARGAINING
WITH THE ANGELS TO SET ME FREE
LOSE MY FAITH
AS THE ANGELS LOST THEIR HELPING HAND
ON THE EDGE OF DESPERATION
WHY IS IT ME
WHERE’S MY CHANCE
I AM FALLING IN THE DEPTH
TO ASHES
CAN’T QUIT THIS AGONY
I’LL BE FREE
WAITING FOR MY DEMISE
MY DAYS ARE NUMBERED
DEFEAT A CHANCE
AS LIFE IS PASSING BY
I CLOSE MY EYES
THE STRUGGLE I RESIGNED
FOREVER BLIND
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11. |
Wishes Wiped Away
05:43
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WISHING THINGS I’LL NEVER GET
PRAYING ON MY KNEES FOR HELP
NEVER ANSWERED AT MY ASKS
I FEELING DROWNING AND GOT LOST
ALL THE MEMORIES THAT I HAVE
OF LIFE AND SUDDEN COMING DEATH
WANT YOU TO BE HERE AT ALL
OH I NEED YOU MORE THAN ALL
REACHING FOR THE LITTLEST SIGNS
TO STOP MY MIND GETTING BLIND
WHERE IS MY WAY TO GET OUT
FALLING DEEPER BLEEDING OUT
HEAL MY WOUNDS
FORGIVE MY SINS
WIPE MY TEARS
FADE MY FEARS
[MY MIND FADES
HOLD ON ME
PLEASE FULFILL
MY DEATH-BED WILL]
CAN’T BELIEF THAT MY LIFE IS THROUGH
I WOULDN’T WASTE IT IF I KNEW
NEVER THOUGHT THE DAY WILL COME
SURE BUT NOT WHEN I AM THAT YOUNG
TO EXCUSE FOR ALL THAT DEEDS
ALL THE MISTAKES AND MISCHIEF
IF I COULD I WOULD DIAL BACK
REMEMBER ME I WON’T COME BACK
PARALYZED I LAY
IN THE GRAVED BEEN SHOVELED FOR ME
MY WHOLE LIFE I SEE
A SILENT SCREAM SOAKS THROUGH MY BODY
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